If you thought this blog was dead I don't blame you. One doesn't simply disappear from the internet for several months yet return to find the same level of attention and/or enthusiasm. Although, if I'm being honest, that's not why I'm here. That, may in fact, be why I stopped updating for so long. Shortly before I stopped updating I was more caught up with the idea of exposure, of being entertaining, and having a style, a persona, than in my actual writing. The process of building a blog, of actually having readers was exciting, but I also knew very little about actually managing a blog. So, I began to do some research. I started spending more and more time researching how to run a site. In order to get a better feel for the blogging community I spent hours upon hours networking and reading other blogs. In a relatively short amount of time my priorities changed. The easiest explanation for my absence is that I stopped being myself and got fed up with it.
In some ways my excess of time spent away from writing paid off. My site traffic increased. Clearly I was doing something right! I had readers! Surely as a writer there could be no better thing than to have readers? I spent yet more time learning about blogging, and more time browsing other blogs. As I divided my time between between my day job, reading, writing, and 'blogging', with ever more weight being given to blogging, my updates remained few and far between. Even as my site traffic continued to increase, even as I started actually getting comments (for which I was overjoyed), I was losing interest in reading and it became increasingly difficult to write, even when I found time to. In the end I stopped updating altogether because I was discontent and couldn't place why.
In some ways my excess of time spent away from writing paid off. My site traffic increased. Clearly I was doing something right! I had readers! Surely as a writer there could be no better thing than to have readers? I spent yet more time learning about blogging, and more time browsing other blogs. As I divided my time between between my day job, reading, writing, and 'blogging', with ever more weight being given to blogging, my updates remained few and far between. Even as my site traffic continued to increase, even as I started actually getting comments (for which I was overjoyed), I was losing interest in reading and it became increasingly difficult to write, even when I found time to. In the end I stopped updating altogether because I was discontent and couldn't place why.
